Current Mood~~~~

"Gangsta"

I need a gangsta
To love me better
Than all the others do
To always forgive me
Ride or die with me
That's just what gangsters do

I'm fucked up, I'm black and blue
I'm built for all the abuse
I got secrets that nobody, nobody, nobody knows
I'm good on that pussy shit
I don't want what I can get
I want someone with secrets that nobody, nobody, nobody knows

I need a gangsta
To love me better
Than all the others do
To always forgive me
Ride or die with me
That's just what gangsters do

My freakness is on the loose
And running all over you
Please, take me to places that nobody, nobody knows
You got me hooked up on the feeling
You got me hanging from the ceiling
Got me up so high I'm barely breathing
So don't let me, don't let me, don't let me, don't let me go

I need a gangsta
To love me better
Than all the others do
To always forgive me
Ride or die with me
That's just what gangsters do
They do, they do, they do oh
To always forgive me
Ride or die with me
That's just what gangsters do

Bad Anger Attitude cause of Monthly period ?

Tiap ngepost blog sekarang2 ini pasti pas lagi dateng bulan atau beberapa hari sbelum siklus mens. Soalnya kaya yang harus ngeluarin unek-unek gitu, bawaanya kesel mulu.. Gw sadar banget diri gw kaya gimana kalau lagi dateng bulan. Sama sahabat sendiri aja bisa berantem gara-gara hal ga penting karena gw berubah jadi super sensitif dan tempramental.

Kaya tadi pagi di kereta, gw marahin orang yang ngalangin jalan turun gw. Tiba tiba aja meledak langsung nyerang pake mulut, untung orangnya langsung diem, kalau orangnya nyautin marahnya gw bisa gw gebuk tuh. Dan gw nyesel. Nyesel kenapa harus sampe marah-marah kaya gitu. Gw ngerasa diri ini sesombong itu sampe bisa bisanya marahin orang di depan umum. Siapa gw..? Kenapa gw ga bisa ngontrol emosi kalau lagi dapet... :(( Nyesel aseli. Tiap kebablasan kaya gini udahanya pasti nyesel dan pengen nangis. :((

Setiap dateng bulan kaya gini biasanya gw menghindari ketemu banyak orang, lebih milih diem di meja kantor atau kalau libur lebih pilih diem di kamar karena gw ga mau kelepasan kontrol akan diri gw sendiri. Tapi berhubung sekarang pulang pergi kerja harus naik Commuter line yang udah pada tau lah yaa kondisinya gimana, masih suka sesekali kelepasan kaya gini. Istigfar..istigfarr... harusnya ini mulut lebih banyak Dzikir tiap dijalan biar ga kealihkan emosinya. :((

Ahhh...

Taulah~~